Tue May 15, 2012 7:54 am
A Legend's Reflections...
Two years. Two long, long years since last I posted in these forums. Two uninterrupted years serving a ban for promoting things I shouldn't promote. No, nothing nasty or gross or lewd. But illegal all the same. A long time to be out of action.
I saw the Haypi Reflections contest was up and running. Another player with whom I've played since time immemorial exclaimed excitedly that yet another Haypi contest was afoot. I shrugged it off, like I've shrugged off so many responsibilities and warnings and mutes and bans. Just another banal exercise is lighthearted recollections that so few of us had any knowledge of or care for.
But it hit me then, hit me like a ton of bricks. Washed over me like an ice cold shower on a hot summer day. This is what I should've been involved in since the beginning. Instead of screaming for "justice" or railing against what, at the time, I saw as a broken system, I should have been including myself in the efforts of positive players, visionaries even, not in trying to enforce and defend player rights, but in trying simply to make the atmosphere more fun, more....lighthearted. Approachable. Accessible. And ultimately, more rewarding for the individual.
I am Foamcups. The Legend of S1. The Expert Hunter. And my reflections on this game are part and parcel not of my accomplishments, or people I've met, or battles I've won. My memories of this game were always centered in anger, in dissatisfaction and feelings of slight and vitriol. But now, after playing this game for so long, meeting so many different people, and thinking about all the anger and hate...my Haypi Reflections boil down to one simple emotion:
Regret.
Some of you know me. I go by many names in many different servers. And I regret not focusing more on all of you that I've met and dealt with in a positive way. I remember specific players (you know who you are) talking with me when I was banned. Arguing on me behalf to get me free. Defendinge to no end when it came to The Ballad of Foamcups. The long, vicious struggle with certain experts. And I value you now just as much as I valued you then. And to you, my comrades, I say this: I am sorry for putting you all in the position I put you in. Repeatedly. Being forced to choose between upholding your standing as respectable players, as opposed to arguing on behalf of a repeat offender and general malcontent. So many people will read this and think "It's just Foam being Foam, the clown, the jerk, the guy that's been banned longer than he's been free." I don't blame you, and understand the sentiment. I'd say the same thing.
So. To those of you I put into difficult decisions, some of you Experts, some normal players, and a small few who were the latter and became the former, I say this. I enjoyed your chit chat. I reveled in making you laugh. I respect you for your service. And I love you for your companionship.
Sincerely Yours
The Legend,
The Myth,
The Immortal,
And the Eternally Grateful,
Foamcups.
I saw the Haypi Reflections contest was up and running. Another player with whom I've played since time immemorial exclaimed excitedly that yet another Haypi contest was afoot. I shrugged it off, like I've shrugged off so many responsibilities and warnings and mutes and bans. Just another banal exercise is lighthearted recollections that so few of us had any knowledge of or care for.
But it hit me then, hit me like a ton of bricks. Washed over me like an ice cold shower on a hot summer day. This is what I should've been involved in since the beginning. Instead of screaming for "justice" or railing against what, at the time, I saw as a broken system, I should have been including myself in the efforts of positive players, visionaries even, not in trying to enforce and defend player rights, but in trying simply to make the atmosphere more fun, more....lighthearted. Approachable. Accessible. And ultimately, more rewarding for the individual.
I am Foamcups. The Legend of S1. The Expert Hunter. And my reflections on this game are part and parcel not of my accomplishments, or people I've met, or battles I've won. My memories of this game were always centered in anger, in dissatisfaction and feelings of slight and vitriol. But now, after playing this game for so long, meeting so many different people, and thinking about all the anger and hate...my Haypi Reflections boil down to one simple emotion:
Regret.
Some of you know me. I go by many names in many different servers. And I regret not focusing more on all of you that I've met and dealt with in a positive way. I remember specific players (you know who you are) talking with me when I was banned. Arguing on me behalf to get me free. Defendinge to no end when it came to The Ballad of Foamcups. The long, vicious struggle with certain experts. And I value you now just as much as I valued you then. And to you, my comrades, I say this: I am sorry for putting you all in the position I put you in. Repeatedly. Being forced to choose between upholding your standing as respectable players, as opposed to arguing on behalf of a repeat offender and general malcontent. So many people will read this and think "It's just Foam being Foam, the clown, the jerk, the guy that's been banned longer than he's been free." I don't blame you, and understand the sentiment. I'd say the same thing.
So. To those of you I put into difficult decisions, some of you Experts, some normal players, and a small few who were the latter and became the former, I say this. I enjoyed your chit chat. I reveled in making you laugh. I respect you for your service. And I love you for your companionship.
Sincerely Yours
The Legend,
The Myth,
The Immortal,
And the Eternally Grateful,
Foamcups.
Can't stop, won't stop.